Sometimes I wonder what I am doing here.
Here being Virginia. While I really love living here, sometimes it’s really tough to be away from my family and friends back in Michigan.
Today, I should be on the deck at my parents’ house with my mom and my grandma and the whole extended family, having a beer and a bizarre conversation with one of my uncles. I should have made my mom pancakes for breakfast and gone for a walk with her. I should be exchanging eye rolls with my sister and eating a turkey burger grilled up by my dad.
Instead, I’m alone and feeling pretty sad. I wasn’t expecting to feel this way today, but I guess I just have to feel it, get through it, and try to take care of myself.
Here’s what I’ve tried so far:
I went to church this morning.
Church usually helps me feel more centered, but today I left still feeling restless.
I stopped by the mall.
Retail therapy doesn’t always help . . .
New springy polishes
Cheapie rings just for fun
. . . but it doesn’t necessarily hurt, either . . .
I read my favorite blogs.
I cried like a baby reading all of the sweet mom posts . . . it may have actually made me a little more sad . . .
I did some yoga.
I really needed the stretch after my run yesterday. No matter how I’m feeling, doing something physical always helps me to feel better. Today was no different. Just breathing and stretching felt good.
I might do some baking.
I don’t know. I really like to bake. It usually makes me happy. But my appetite is pretty much zero when I get sad.
I’m trying really hard to muster up some enthusiasm for anything today, but I’m just not feeling it. I guess some days are like that. Tomorrow will be better, right?
Sorry to be a bit of a downer today. I hope that all of you have had a wonderful day celebrating your wonderful mothers!
How do you cheer yourself up?